Ascension. I don't experience it as going away and returning.
I have awareness of certain things, certain things I'm familiar
with, I look at some/all as part of myself/Myself, and therefore
have 'power with' some things when Myself/Oneness.
My 'process' of becoming Balanced, usually consists of localizing
and overcoming any present fears and 'arrive' at a state/place/balance
where I can contemplate
'WHO I AM AT THE MOMENT AND WHAT I TRULY WISH TO DO'.
When I did enough undoing/unstructuring/unfearing so I can
regenerate/realign/retain balance of my base Self, I can extend
it to other aspects of my Self.
For example, other people. :o)
At the point of enough clearing/Clarity 'WHO I AM AT THE MOMENT
AND WHAT I TRULY WISH TO DO' usually becomes quite clear to
My usual, standard perception is the following:
a strong, sharp, powerful thread, a laserbeam of Light (direction
upward) cutting through and transmuting everything.
After realigning myself with Light, my perception of mySelf
as a (if you think in terms of dimension, multidimensional)
STAR resurfaces and is reestablished.
It is important to overstand that in doing so, Duality or the
strictness of the Matrix diminishes and becomes loved and balanced/realigned/incorporated,
becoming a Loving Tool/Aspect of Self.
So it is quite possible and Present to experience the negative
aspects of duality and have the deep feeling of Love, Strenght
and Balance - at the same time.
The 3D-ish effects of myself being in a more balanced, Loving
state, quite often include the following.
1. Lessened ability to express myself to other persons using
language standardly by the norms accepted by general population,
due to more 'holographic' thinking processes (eg. direct 'application'
opposed to strictly linear thoughtstreams.
(Lol, just start yelling at people with incoherent screeches,
I bet the
effect will be something quite similar! :o))) )
2. Experiencing the 3D-ish self in a state of flow. Less resistance
of surrounding reality.
Instead of perceiving strict physical objects, the accent is
more on inter-relations: patterns, energy fields, consciousness/awareness
Have you seen the movie "The Matrix"? The feeling
is quite like the special effects in that movie (and similar
movies), especially when they move just a slightly bit faster
than they are supposed to. As the time difference between desire
and realization lessens, interesting things like that speed-up
effect can happen.
3. People either fear you more, or they love you more.
Love is powerful. The cause for the first reaction is: powerful
is strange or exposing, strange or exposing is unknown, and
unknown is to be feared. :o(
Explanation for the second reaction: Unity strenghtens!